Your Highness Mother Fucker

The name is Emelyn. She love her father a lot. She's a photography lover. She's an aspiring multimedia designer. Just a girl who still waiting for the miracles, waiting to achieve her dreams ♥

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random Emo post.

I have no idea what im doing and i don't know how i passed my days recently. Seriously, I was being emo, very very emo lately. There are so many negative thinking came a crossed my mind which makes me felt that im such a useless and ineffective person. Somehow it makes me felt like im the extra one. I wonder how im suppose to overcome this feelings. I felt so hopeless, fruitless and lost.

From time to time, when human felt sad, depressed, gloomy, heartbreaking or whatever including those happiest moment, we need to share with somebody. Mouth, Eyes, Hands and parts of our body was created to express and share our feelings. Well of course i want to, but i cant because i might be afraid for getting the third or maybe the fourth unforgettable experience in my life.

I treasure every things i own now, thank God for every single things in mylife. Although my family wasn't prosperous, but at least daddy still able to gave us a very fine and healty enviroment to grown up and become a useful person. Although i wasn't being a perfect girls like others, but im still giving myself sometimes to change and make me into a great and wonderful girl. Although i don't have much so called best friend, but i still have those who really cares and concern about me out there.

But why im still living in the pass, thinking those stupid things which will never turned back like how they supposed to be. I might look taught, outgoing, sanguine and even optimistic. Yet, that was just my cover or maybe the pass of me. Now, im no longer this type of girl. Im just being so negative, i hardly accept people and i don't even want to believe in people anymore. Human being used to be cruel and evil, friends can also turned into enemies in a twinkle.

Believe it or not, i threat every single person like their the best people ever in the world. I appreciate and treasure our friendship, i trusted and reliance them much unless i found something bad about that. Once i found that, is hard for me to accept that my friend actually did such things. I admit that i still cant really forget what had happen. Im still trying my best to forgive and forget. At the same time, im losing the confidence of myself. I might be a dumb-ass. Even though the incident passed for like months, it still hurts.

I don't know who are my friends now. Maybe im just friend-less, which i never noticed about it. Maybe im just not good in social. Maybe im just too ordinary and too common. Maybe the world don't even needs me. Seriously, i don't want life like this. Im still young and i just don't want to waste my precious times like this, i don't want to do the same things like what im doing, i need something more. I felt that this wasn't the real me, im faking myself. I don't even know who am i, what i need and what i want.

"I don't want to get to the end of my live and find that I have just lived the length of it. I want to have lived the width of it as well " - by Diane Ackerman
I found that this quote was pretty interesting and i personally was keen on it. It was really inspiring as well. I shouldnt wasting my time and i should focus and undoubtedly with my future. All i need is just time, give me some time and i will settle every things.

sorry, just a random emo post.
you can just skip it if you want to.

ps / i think i just need someone to share with.
pps / i think i just need more friends.
ppps / please talk to me.

pppps / J just called me because of my post ♥
thanks darling!

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