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    Date: Sunday, August 30, 2009
    Time: 1:25 AM
i wish i can die tomorrow.

    i never feels like this before, my brain fried like bbq.
    i wish i died when i bath, when i eat, when i do projects, i wish i die every second!

    well, i don't even know who am i now!
    i fight for my dream and because of this i even quarrel with daddy.
    im the dumb ass who prefer TOA and die die not going to LKW.
    i always want to prove him wrong, i want to let him know i know what im doing.
    but not this time, im so damn wrong.

    im asking myself, am i still enjoying design?
    im asking myself, is this what i want for my future?
    im asking myself, is what im doing now worth?
    i cant get any answer because im fucking lost!

    i wish i can tell them that we are stressing, work overload while not complaining for fun!
    i wish i can stop whatever im doing now, come on, just fail me you asshole!
    i wish i can tell Micheal that your EQ so damn low and i hate you like bbq!
    i wish i can tell Eddie that i really hate animation and i cant do that!
    i wish i can just skip college everyday and enjoying my life like how i used to!

    we are no longer kiddo, not yet adult but is already pre-adult lar!
    we din't voice out doesn't mean we don't have feelings.
    we voice out doesn't mean we are childish, always complaining.
    we just want to tell you how we feels, we just want to work everything out.
    do not tell me how stress is the industry, we are here to learn because we are student.
    do not tell me how we going to survive in the future even we cant handle this.
    we are still learning, this is the process.
    everything needs time, don't tell me you never heard this.

    IM FUCKING PISSED NOW.
    not because of college, is because of my weakness!
    this is my fault because i dare not stand out and say out my feelings!
    i choose to cry, cry and cry like bbq in the night!

    friends, stop comforting me.
    you know nothing and you wont understand my situation.
    friends, stop judging me.
    i swear i dint partying around and neglect my projects.
    because you all know nothing, things are different.

    i don't believe what im doing anymore, i lost the passion.
    im a multimedia student who doesn't want to be multimedia designer.
    i miss home, i just want to go home.



    im just fucking depressed, ignore me, ignore this post.
    im tired, i really dont know what im doing now.
    slept for 2 - 3 hours per day? die soon.
    planning to invit people to my funeral liao.

    ps / i don't want to see any of us crying anymore. just few more days to go.
    all the best to all AD and MM students!


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